Opinion vs Conviction

"You may hold an opinion, but a Conviction holds you."

At some point in your life, I am sure you have battled with a true conviction, I know I have. As a matter of fact, I have battled with my own convictions within the past few days.

Its as if you are in a constant realm of thought that you cannot escape. Sometimes is so strong that you feel caged or imprisoned with this foreign thought. Its piercing existence penetrates through your heart and no matter the effort taken to remove yourself from its presence.....it continues to find you and knock at your door. Even when we begin to rationalize and logically excuse or justify this conviction there is always a piece of it that remains alive within you.

Interesting enough a conviction is firm and unshaken, yet we choose to believe the instability and uncertainty of our opinions. We create an opinion based on what we feel and what society tells us. We flame our opinions in strength through what brings us temporary pleasure. Ironically, we seek out stability and truth yet make decisions based on instability and lies.

As I mentioned, I have been recently convicted and as much as I would like to ignore it, its presence continues to grab hold of who I am. What I have come to realize is that I, like many, can learn to ignore the constant knocking of a conviction the rest of my life.....but that never makes it go away. Then I can create an opinion to justify it........but that never makes it go away. Why go through a life lasting battle with my conviction?? Because I fear what others will think? or maybe I fear losing something? well whatever the case is I no longer count it worth ignoring my convictions.

I'd rather live a life of a freed conscience, than to be a prisoner of my own convictions.